~Today Is The Day



As I lied down for sleep about a few minutes ago, I realized that there is absolutely nothing I've done with my life so far. I've hardly been in any real work, know about as much about the real world as an eight-year-old, still prefer video-gaming over going out to socialize, and I'm practically a NEET. Although I've been  working on a few several novels to finally achieve that dream of getting published as a certain means of "feeling useful", that's hardly more than what a lot of people my age can say about themselves. And so, lying awake in bed and mulling over these painful yet sobering  truths, I thought to myself, "Hey, why not create a blog?"



Indeed, why not?



So, today, my lazy butt is going to do something that will be, by far, the biggest thing I've ever done on my own in my entire life. After leading a bit of a sheltered life and practically living as a bit of a spoiled brat, I've decided to be brave and do what I know I must in order to take strides to the career I've been hunting after since the meager age of twelve.



Today marks an awesome day in my entire life where I will finally do the adult thing and take the bull by the horns...no matter the dreaded criticism that, I fear, will come in the same package. And hopefully, I won't wind up screwing this all up...again.



I want to feel more useful to society than I've ever felt in the four years I've been a shut-in, even if for the teeniest moment that is entertaining a hard-laboring person with a few twisted stories spun together out of the black hole-y-ness of my depraved and cluttered mind. I've decided to do the only thing that I know I can possibly do in order to not only stay sane, but to let people into the mind of this eagerly, avid artist who has mostly hidden away plenty of her works from public eyes out of embarrassment and fear of harsh criticism.

But, perhaps it's just about time to let all of that go. As personal and rather private a person I am, I've decided that it's about time to open my arms and embrace people into my world. Whether accepted or not; turned away or understood; I think it's about time I suck it all up and let people read the work's that I've desperately collected over the years in a very tattered and ancient box (that's falling apart to hell, by the way), and let them into this mind that has often kept me up many hours into the night.

So, read - comment. Love and share. And more importantly, enjoy and be amazed by the wonderful world of amateur literature.

~This Has Been A Terra Lea Moment.